A New Promise

More than a year ago..

I felt so wasted and alienated, why it's like they want to forgot and left me when we almost graduated from high school? My best friends from 2 years, Andi and Bryan. But, she came closer to my life, Leirissa Larasati. Actually we'd already close, as a classmate of course. She's kind of funny and class' merry-maker girl and I had a crush on her a little bit. Then we talked more intense, we started to massaging everytime even until late night in long graduation holiday. She comforted me, made me feel so secure and wanted, made my day so colorful, she was so special to me, how lucky I am, could be close to beautiful and unique girl like her and one day....

"Rissa, would you be me girlfriend?

She looked surprised but she said "Yes"

"Are you sure?" Asked me.

Rissa smiled and said yes to me.

That day ever became one of the happiest day in my life.

.....

Today

"Dion? Broo, are you still on earth? Wake up, wake up!" Indra, one of my best friend in college yelling in my ear.

"Wtf are you crazy!? What the hell are you want to say!?"

"Not him, dreamer boy but me. Could you repeat my last saying?"

Oh. My. God Mr. Anton.

"Im so sorry Mr. Anton, I didn't pay attention to you."

"Well, no problem, just continue your daydreaming, dreamer boy." Said Mr. Anton sarcastically.

"What are you thinking, dreamer boy?? Ooh I see, you thought about Rissa right? Hahahaa"

"Shut up! Hahahayeah, I think I need to wash my face first."

I walk to bathroom, yes Indra is right. We, Rissa and I continuing our study at the same college but in different faculty. This charity action is my major program and it's held outside town, I don't know Rissa will participating. Wow how long her hair now, so beautiful. Why she looks little bit skinnier and paler. Is she unhealthy, whether she's stressed? Should I ask her? Rissa is my ex, no no she's still my girlfriend, eh no she's my.....even I don't know what's her status now. I don't break up her but almost 5 months I didn't talk to her, since that time; I met my new college friends. They're great friends, we play together, go somewhere together, spend whole day together, make me forget about my problem with my previous best friends in high school and suddenly I feel that actually all I really need is new friends not a girlfriend, then little by little I felt that I didn't need her again, I replied her chat in a long time because I'm busy with my friends, didn't greet her with good morning or good night again, and finally I didn't meet her again until now, sometimes I think whether I'm so cruel or not but she looks ok with my behavior changing, she also didn't contact me again. So everything is fine, right?

.....

Oh no the sink is broken. I walk to the toilet in the old building.

"Dion?" Said a girl voice behind me.

Why i meet her when there're only two of us in the old building..

"Oh hi, Rissa." Then I pass her to the sink.

See? Only hi? You're so awful Dion, say something else to her, said my mind.

Suddenly... The ground is moving. Earthquake. An enormous earthquake, people are shouting. The wall begin to collapse.

"Dioon, watch out!!" Someone push my body away and everything turns dark.

.....

"Aaargh my legs" I try to move but the debris burried my body. Fortunately, i can breathe well. Then I realized,

"It's dark!" God, I'm blind! I'm blind I don't wanna blind!!" Cried me.

"Hahaha it's night Dion and of course state electricity company turn off the electricity after the earthquake, you're not blind."

"Rissa, it's that you? Thanks God, are you okay?"

"Yeah, here I am. I think I my body trapped behind this wall which separate us. She knock the wall.

"And, I think people will take a long time to find us because we're on the back part of this building."

Then silent.

10 minutes pass. Ok Dion, you must start the conversation.

"How are you Rissa?" Very cliche topic.

"Nod bad, how'bout ya? Still happy isn't  it with your friends?

Why she talks like that..

"Yes of course, we will go to the beach next week." Oh my, I shouldn't say that to her.

"Owkaay, have fun then."

The conversation turns very awkward.

"Don't you feel that is become colder here? Said me.

"Nope, but wait let me try to warmer you."

It's magic! Or maybe just my suggestion, I feel my body become warmer like she's hugs me.

We stay quiet at least for 2 hours.

I tried to break the situation, "You don't want to talk and meet me again?"

"You don't want it." She said calmly.

"Why you said that? Of course I want."

"Because I know it, from your replies which turn shorter and shorter then finally now you didn't message me again, you're very enthusiast with your friends but you show a cold shoulder to me."

Damn it, she's right.

"But you seems like you're okay when I do that. Why don’t you tell me?"

"You're happy with your friends, I don't want you feel sad again like when your friends left you, Because when I compared our old chat history with the newest, seems like I'm not your happiness again."

She said it clearly, she don't cry, but I know I've hurt her so much.

"Then why don't you break up me?" I continued.

"Yeah, maybe someday you'll need me again, I'll still be there for you."

Silent, silent again.

"Why you do that Rissa, that's hurts your heart."

"Because I'm still loving you the same, don't you realize that? You're so selfish, I don't message you again because it's like you don't want to keep our relationship going."

"But you're wrong, I still want you, I still want our relationship." Said me.

"Then why you didn't show it to me? I'm not a shaman, I can't read your mind. You want me to struggle for our relationship just by myself?"

I freeze. But I feel that my eyes getting warmer, then hotter.

"I'm so sorry Rissa, I'm so sorry. I'm too stupid to realize how precious you are. You've stayed by my side when my friends left me but I muff you when I have new friends. I'll promise we'll be struggling for our relationship together like before or we can start it from zero again, you want it?"

"But it's too late..." I hear her very quiet voice.

"No no listen, I'll do everything to fix our relationship, my special. I promise"

But she don't say anything.

I see the soft sunlight burst through the wall debris' gap. It's already morning.

"Just don't do the same to other girl you may love in the future. Ok?" Finally she said something.

"Noo, I just want y...."

"Ssstt, don't you hear that? They're looking for a survivor Dion, you must shout so they can safe you."

"Hellooo...anybody here?! Helloo..could you hear me??" Many people yelling from far away.

"Heelp..heelp I'm here heeelp me please, heelp!!" I'm yelling back at them.

"We must shout together Rissa, so they can hear us."

"Ok, heelp, help me please, I'm here help me please!!"

"Heeey, I'm heree..help me help me pleasee!!"

"Hey I just heard something from there, let's check it."

I feel so tired, hungry and thirsty.

"It's works Rissa, it's works, let's we shout together again."

"Rissa? Rissa? Oh my God, of course she's very tired, how if she fainting..."

"Rissa?? You're all right?"

"Yeah, just continuing, Dion. Shout louder, you can do it!"

"But, I'm so tired Rissa."

"Noo, don't give up Dion I'm still here."

"Heelpp quick, heeelp I'm here heelp please!!" I yelled louder.

"It's ok, it's ok we're here, we found you, please stay awake we're digging the debris." Said the people outside.

"We're safe, Rissa, now we're safe!"

"I think he's under this wall, let's move it together in 1..2..3!" The sunlight blinds my eyes.

.....

"Just don't do the same to other girl you may love in the future, Ok?"

.....

"Rissa, Rissaa!" I wake up.

"Whoa..whoa easy, don't sit down first, you've got fracture in your right leg.'

"Uncle Ferry?" I recognize him when my sights being normal again. Uncle Ferry is mom's youngest brother who become a doctor. 

"You've been unconscious about a day after they found you in that building debris, you're okay Dion, you just exhausted.

"Are mom and dad all right after the earthquake?

"Yes, they are. And they're headed here now."

"Rissa! Where is she?! She's ok, right? I want to see her, uncle"

"Rissa? Oh the girl found with you yesterday?"

"Yes, she is. We spent the night talking together. Where is she uncle?"

"You talked together with her at that night? Hmm...I'll ask her doctor first."

Rissa, I'll fulfill my promise to you...

5 minutes, 10 minutes...

Uncle Ferry is back. With another doctor.

"So, could I meet her now, doctor? Pleasee.."

"Doctor Ferry said that you've been talked to Leirissa that night. That's impossible, Leirissa's body found after the team rescued you. Her autopsy report said that she had heavy brain concussion and she died more than 12 hours before her body was found. Probably she's fell dead after......something.......hitting her..........then.............

Everything is turns dark.

"Just don't do the same to other girl you may love in the future. That's your new promise I've been do my best to stay with you until the end. Farewell Dion.." Her sound is echoing in my mind.